Maybe

This song never failed to bring tears to my eyes… maybe because tis song is a song that my heart silently sang for the past 29 years of my life…

20 years ago a young woman decided to give me up… and 29 years later here am I, writing a letter and prays that one day you will come across and read this…

Nay…

29 years after I still love you… Even if you decided leaving and giving me up was the best one for me…

In each passing day, I have always wondered… how you look like… Do we have something in common physically? Do you also have straight hair like mine? Do we have the same eye color? Do we look like each other…

There are nights I would stare out my window and just think about you… Do I ever cross your mind? Have you ever thought about me? Have you ever wondered how I looked like now? Have you ever wished you’d find me again?

In each and every milestone in my life, I have never failed to think about you… silently wishing that you’d be proud of me too… That hopefully I have grown to be a woman you wanted me to be…

I have cried a thousand tears nay… trying to understand the reasons why… trying to think how hard it was for you to give me up. Mama told me stories about you and she has raised me well thats why I have no hate nor angst about you…

I just wish that life has become better for you Nay, that giving me up was all worth it.

Nay.. I tried to look for you but I think God has better plans for us… I am not letting go of that hope that one day we will meet and all my questions will be answered.

Nay, even if you and I maybe strangers to each other… deep in my heart you have always held a place so special…

Like what Annie said in her song…