Heart To Heart Talk with Hubby

Today I got the chance to talk to Hubby.

He was in a good mood. So I grabbed the opportunity to lay out my cards.

I can sense he was tensed at the start. He was not looking at me. As if he knew what was coming. I was silent for a few minutes thinking what and how to say things.

I broke the silence. I asked him what happened to us… He stared blankly at me, puzzled.

I told him I am miserable and unhappy and asked him if he noticed. He said no.  Cause he’s too drunk to notice.

I asked him if he still loves me. He said yes.

I asked him if he still wants to be with me. He said yes.

Then emotions started to fill me that I can no longer control. If u truly love me then why do you keep on hurting me this way? I am unhappy and will continue to be unhappy if things wont change. That one day he will wake up realizing he will no longer live a life with me in it. I cried my heart out. All of the pains I have inside was translated into words.

We both fell silent.

I saw the tears rolling down from his eyes. “Im sorry” he said it wholeheartedly. He embraced me as if it was the last..

We were both crying in each others arms.

He looked deep in my eyes and said “I love you and Im sorry for not showing that to you”

I cried.

I know in my heart he meant every single word of it.

But a part of me is in doubt… How long will this last?